Through the eyes of a child

I am usually a pretty private person.  There are some things that I will only tell certain people for different reasons.  Any how, I don't always write things about Tiffanie because I think it makes some people uncomfortable because they don't know what to say.  But I wanted to share this little conversation I had with Clint.

Usually when we go to the cemetary to put flowers or something on Tiffanie's grave we make the kids stay in the car so that we can just hurry and do it.  It has been a while sinse we have been to the cemetary so we went up last Sunday afternoon. 

Clint was the only one awake so we let him get out.  As we were standing there looking at the headstone and him asking questions he comes and gives me a hug and says, "I'm sad that Tiffanie died are you sad?"  I told him I was then he said. "I wish she would have lived do you?"  I gave him a hug and told him sometimes but if she did live then I might not have him, Douglas and Tamra."  He asked why and Tyrone told him because she may have kept us too busy.

I have often thought about the what ifs.  If she would have lived I am not sure we would have had the others when we did.  As sad as it makes me feel at times because she did not live I am very greatful that I have Clint, Douglas and Tamra in my life and I would not go back and change anything.

I know that I will be able to raise Tiffanie and I will get to know her.  She is always in my thoughts and near by and there is a reaason that she only needed to stay on earth long enough to get a name and a blessing.  I love all of my children and am thanful for the things that I learn from them.

Having this conversation with Clint reminded me why I am thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and his plan.  He knows each one of us and he sees the bigger picture and knows what is best for us.  There is a reason for everything and we need to live our lives the best we can so that we can see our loved ones again.  What a sweet spirit Clint has and I am glad that I was able to have this conversation with him.

1st bday

Opening her 1st bday present.

Wanting to open more.

Can you believe that this little girl is now a year old?

Look how small she used to be.    Now she is walking.

Oh my, it has been forever sense I have been on here to post and they have changed things and boy do I not like it at all. 

Sorry I have not uploaded any new pictures yet but here's what has been going on. 

School has been out for a month and the kids are loving it. 
Douglas graduated kindergarten and is going to start 1st grade in August.
Clint will be in 2nd grade.
Tamra will be 1 years old on the 21 of July.  I cannot believe how fast she has grown.  Her personality is starting to come out.  I will share more of that on her birthday. 

Tyrone is still working at the mine and enjoying his job while I am off for the summer taking care of the house and kids and loving it.

I will post more in the next couple of weeks after the holidays and bdays and include pictures.  Hope everyone is enjoying their summer break

Unexpected Trip to Idaho

looking for Easter eggs.

Friday morning we woke up to snow. I made a snowman hood ornament.

We made bunny mobiles.

We had to make a trip up to Idaho for my Grandma's funeral. On the way home we stopped and stayed a night with Ginger. These are some pictures of the fun we had with Ginger and her boys.

Some Random Pictures

Clint playing with someone's phone.Tyrone trying to "cook" a baby.

Cute baby girl

How Douglas ended up in bed. The boys usually don't sleep together because this is what happens.

A beautiful lady left this earth yesterday and went to be with her beloved husband and other children/great grandchildren that have passed before her. It is always hard to lose a loved one but with the knowledge that I have that we will see them again and be able to be with them makes it just a little bit easier. I have many great memories of my Grandma and Grandpa and am thankful that they are together again. They were amazing people and they will be missed by many.

Weekend Part 2